Camilla Lees would love to end her international netball hiatus but juggling her medical studies and netball mean it's not quite so straightforward for the Central Pulse midcourter.
Lees made her Silver Ferns debut in 2009 but her commitments at medical school mean she has only been available for the Fastnet Ferns during her holidays since then.
The 23-year-old is in her sixth year of studies now and should officially become a doctor in November.
Her exams have finished and because she is rotating between specialties now there is a little bit more flexibility in her schedule.
However, with work placements to fulfil before November Lees still can't simply tell Silver Ferns coach Waimarama Taumaunu she's available for the eight New Zealand Tests between September 16 and November 1.
At the same time she would dearly love to be able to co-ordinate her career commitments to allow her to return to the Silver Ferns, but knows selection is not guaranteed.
"I really want to be [available to play]," said the Central Pulse player. "It's hard to predict what is going to happen at the end of the year and I can't assume that I'll definitely be picked.
"That's the predicament I'm in. I need to let the university know well in advance if I'm going to need that time off because they might need me to do things at different times to be able to graduate at the end of the year. I'm hoping to be available."
What is more clear-cut is the vacancy at wing attack in the Silver Ferns now that Temepara George has retired and her replacement Liana Leota is in Britain and unavailable.
"I'm hoping it will be perfect timing," said Lees. "But there are so many other great players coming through like Grace Rasmussen who is pushing for that spot too. It's up for grabs for anyone."
Despite playing most of her netball at centre, Lees believes she is now more equipped to handle the wing attack role after getting some court time there for the Pulse and spending time at training in the position as well.
"At wing attack you have to be quite dominant and you have to run that attacking third," she explained.
"I've got more and more confident over the years since playing it a bit more. I used to always just play centre. I feel now that I could switch between quite easily."
It's unlikely that Pulse coach Robyn Broughton will move her from centre in the starting line-up for Sunday's ANZ Championship match against the NSW Swifts in Sydney but Lees does believe playing predominantly at centre will not harm her Silver Ferns chances.
"The centre position could and should be an option for the Silvers Ferns as well," said Lees.
"It's not a disadvantage that I'm playing centre at the moment for the Pulse. Both will benefit each other whatever position I play."
The heat is certainly on the Pulse midcourt after the attack again wasted ball pilfered by defenders Katrina Grant and Te Huinga Reo Selby-Rickit in the loss to the Mystics.
"It's obviously a focus area for the team because out defence are getting so many gains and we are losing it on attack," admitted Lees.
"But it is so tight and there is so much pressure in the midcourt that you're going to make mistakes. We just have to reduce the number of errors that we're making."